Recovery Problems

The day of the procedure I  was still numb from the medicine they gave me so I didn't feel much. The next day I had cramping and light bleeding. on Friday I had severe cramping with light bleeding that the Motrin 800mg the Dr. prescribed didn't really help. Saturday it was worse, I had contraction like cramping every 5-10 mins which would take my breath away. I finally had enough of the pain and decided to go to the ER. I got there and they had me give a urine sample then they brought me back to a room. The nurse took a few vials of blood and put in an Iv port. Then the Dr came in, she told me that she was going to do a pelvic exam and also send me down for an ultrasound to make sure there wasn't any retained pregnancy items. Then she asked me if I would like some morphine for pain, which was given through injection in the backside. I declined the morphine and was given Tylenol with Codeine. I was sent to the ultrasound first, the tech first tried to use the handheld wand on my abdomen, which was very painful, and couldn't really see if there was anything, then she used the trans vaginal wand aka Dildo cam which was even more painful. She didn't say much about what she saw and told me the Dr. would give me more info.

After the ultrasound I was taken back to the room and hooked up to a monitor that showed my pulse and oxygen saturation. They also hooked me up to a blood pressure cuff that would take my blood pressure every 15 minutes (which was very annoying!). The Dr came back in to do the pelvic exam  and OMG that was painful, normally they aren't very comfortable, but this was excruciating, it felt like she was ramming her finger all the way up my uterus. I was climbing the back of the bed just  to get away from her. After the exam she told me she was going to call the Dr who did my procedure and she would be back with what would be next. What seemed like an eternity later she came back and told me that the ultrasound showed my lining was still very thick, and that there was blood pooling in my uterus also she told me that I have a mild infection called endometritis which contributed to the intense cramping I was feeling. I was given a prescription for antibiotics and Tylenol with codeine and sent home with instructions to follow up with my regular Dr.

I have been feeling cramping still with more increased bleeding, but nothing as severe as Friday and Saturday. I am hoping that I will hurry up and recover from this procedure, I really thought it would be easier. Nothing is ever easier for me it seems. Emotionally I'm a little bitter and numb, sadness comes in waves and doesn't last long. I'm just tired I guess and want to move on from this whole experience.

My D&C experience

Wednesday the 17th I went in for my procedure. Everything seemed to happen so quickly. I arrived at 11am, DH had to drop me off at the entrance because there was no parking to be found in the garage. I went to the outpatient surgery desk and was given some paperwork to fill out regarding past procedures and allergy information. From there I took the elevator to the surgery center I only waited a few minutes in the waiting room before being called back to change into the fashionable and accessible hospital gown. Then it was time to go to the back where a bed was waiting for me. I got in and nervously looked around at all the medical supplies. Nurse came in to ask me questions and start my IV I was really starting to get nervous at that time, but she was nice and numbed my hand before putting the IV in. Then finally my DH got come back to wait with me. The anesthesiologist nurse came in to ask me more questions and to tell me the Dr would be in shortly to give me something to relax me. A few mins later the Dr. came in with something in syringe and pushed the medicine into my IV line, the nurse came back and told me everything was ready to go and that it was time, told DH that I loved him and gave him my wedding ring (which he dropped!!! and had to go to lost and found to get it back) he kissed me on the forehead and told me he loved me and that he'll be there as soon as they will allow him to come back. I remember being rolled through the hallways even though I was feeling groggy, and being told to slide onto the bed in the operating room. The last thing I remember was the Dr putting on the oxygen mask and telling me to take deep breaths.

Next thing I remember is feeling someone tucking something between legs and saying she should be waking up in a minute. I opened my eyes and said hi, looked around at the Dr.s and nurses and asked them if they were done yet. I then got rolled back into the recovery room and was given water and then ginger ale and graham crackers. DH came back and gave me a hug and asked I was feeling, I told him I felt funny and then I told him that he should have some of the meds I had they were good! 30 mins later the nurse came in and said it was time for me to go the bathroom and to see if I was ready to go home. I got dressed and was wheeled out to the car. All in all, the experience wasn't that bad and I am grateful for the wonderful nurses and doctors who took care of me. I hope I never have to have the procedure again though.

D&C on Wednesday

Friday I went to the dr.s since it was 2weeks+ That we found out that our little one had stopped growing. Dr. did one last ultrasound to see what was going on, she told us that the lil one stopped growing at around 7wks and that it looked like my body was already reabsorbing everything in the sack although the sack was measuring at 10 weeks. She also stated it could take several more weeks before my body would miscarry naturally. So we scheduled the D&C for Wednesday. She told me that she would be doing the procedure ( which I am happy about that, I'm not sure if I could trust anyone else) and that she would be sending tissue samples out for testing to see if it was chromosomally or something else that caused the miscarriage.

I am so nervous, Tuesday I will have to call the medical center for pre registration and on I will start fasting that night meaning no drinking liquids including water, and no food past 10pm. On Wednesday I will have to be at the medical center at 11am and my procedure won't be until 1pm. The dr. told me that the D&C will only take 20-30 mins and that I will be under light sedation. I will probably able to leave the hosptial by 3. I hope this will go smoothly and that this will be the first and only time I will have to have this procedure done.

Breathe

Today is the fourth day since finding out that I'm going to miscarry. It feels much longer though, I don't think I can wait much longer to get this over with and move on. I am going to call my dr. soon to ask her for the D&C because I am having a hard time emotionally, I am also scared to have be alone when it happens.

Today I was watching a show that I dvr'd a few weeks ago. The host had on a music performance by a guy named Ryan Star, he sang his song Breathe. The whole song I had tears running down my face. The song just really resonated with me about all that I have been feeling since thursday,the part of lyrics that are in Italics is the part that really had me tearing up the most. Here is a video and the lyrics for the song Breathe:



Ryan Star - Breathe Lyrics

She’s fine, most of the time
She takes her days with a smile
She moves like dancing in light
Spinning around to the sound
But sometimes she falls down

CHORUS:
Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you lead
Be all that you need

She likes New York at night
She dreams of running away
Shine on, bright like the sun
When even the sky turns grey

I need you to hear me say
I need you to hear me say

CHORUS:
Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you lead
Be all that you need

Let go of the fear
Let go of the time
Let go of the ones
Who try to put you down
You’re gonna be fine
Don’t hold it inside
If you hurt right now
Then let it all come out

CHORUS:
Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you lead
Be all that you need
Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you lead
Be all that you need

Let go of the fear
Let go of the time
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me