D&C Test Results

Today my RE called she wanted to see how I was feeling. I was happy to tell her that the bleeding and cramping was behind me. She was happy to hear that and then she dumped on me the news that the tissue she sent for testing after my D&C came back as normal pregnancy tissue with not enough to do chromosomal testing. Then the RE asked me if I made my follow up appt to which I responded not yet, well she said I will be gone from the week before Christmas to after Christmas so I'll see you then. I really had hoped to get an appt sooner so we could discuss the next steps and what testing should I be looking into because if everything was normal, it has to be something in my body that caused me to miscarry. I hung up the phone and began to cry because I started to think about the perfect little one that I was carrying and not knowing what caused me to lose my lil angel.

2 Weeks Post D&C

Last  time I blogged I was still cramping and bleeding heavily. I am happy to say that I am no longer cramping or bleeding! This is good because it means that my hcg level is most likely down to less than 5 and my body is getting back on track. Wednesday and Thursday (Thanksgiving) I bled on and off with (TMI ahead, if squeamish turn back now) clots that were red and white looking, I googled and I am quite sure it was placental tissue pieces that were scraped off but missed being suctioned out. It was disgusting and after passing these my bleeding would get heavier I was so scared I would have to go back to the ER or have to get another D&C but Thursday evening my bleeding started to lighten and by Friday morning I was just spotting brownish looking discharge.

Now I'm waiting for my follow up appt. I should be seeing my DR in a week or so. I have to call and set the appt. I am anxious to find out if the tissue testing will tell us what went wrong. I'm also hoping to hear how long we will have to wait until we can try again. Physically I think she will say right after my next AF cycle but emotionally I may need to wait a little longer. I still have days where I want to crawl into a hole and forget everything around me, I also get so angry I want to scream and throw things, but I don't follow through on those urges. Other days I am sad but get through it with out any tears or angry feelings. I hope this phase doesn't last too much longer its exhausting to go through so many ups and downs. Its getting better though, I have a more ok days then bad days. I love my DH, he is such a rock to lean on, he understands my ups and downs and doesn't say anything but will hug me and let me cry.