8w2d Bad news

Today I went in for my 8 week ultrasound. The dr. put the probe in place and thats when things started to go wrong. He was really silent for a few mins and kept scrolling and scrolling on the screen. I knew something was not going well when 10 mins have passed without him saying anything. Thats when he told me that my lil one has stopped growing and the heart has stopped beating. He didn't say how long ago it had happened but he did say that it did happen sometime in the past couple of days. I am beyond devestated. I don't know what has happened. I'm so scared. The dr. gave me a few options, 1, to let pass naturally which can take up to two weeks for it to happen, and its somewhat traumatizing, 2, to go for the D&C which is surgery, but lessens the trauma. or 3, take a medicine that will force my body to expel everything immediately which is traumatizing and can some complications. I am leaning towards the D&C because I don't know when the miscarraige will happen and I most likely will be alone, which scares me. My heart is breaking. Gone too soon my lil one, I'll never forget you my lil angel.

7w0d

Baby's brain -- both hemispheres! -- is growing fast, generating about 100 new cells every minute. Arms and legs are emerging as joints start to form, and a permanent set of kidneys (baby's third!) is now in place.

Today I am 7 weeks pregnant. I have had a very rough week since I last posted. On Thursday the 14th I started bleeding red and somewhat heavily. I was so scared, I called the DH who was at work and told him I needed to go to the ER immediately because I was bleeding. We spent over 3hrs at the ER where the doctor was a complete douche and wouldn't do any ultrasounds and was telling me that this happens and that there was nothing they could do for me. He called my Dr. and told her what was happening and that I should go see her soon. I went home and relaxed so sure it was over. The next day I passed a blood clot the size of my pinky finger, and then I stopped bleeding completely. I haven't bled since then I'm praying that everything is ok and can't wait for my next appt. on the 28th.

About Me:

How far along? 7w0d

Total weight gain/loss: 1-2 lbs

Maternity clothes? Not yet, though my pants are starting to get a little tighter around the waist

Stretch marks? a few but not from this lil' one

Sleep: Yes Please!!! Sleeping is like my job now, I'm seriously logging in at least 10 hrs a day lol!

Best moment this week: The bleeding and spotting has stopped!

Movement: too early, I can't wait to feel the lil' one!

Food cravings: Salads, and lemon lime soda and rootbeer.

Gender: still too early to know

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: nothing really, I'm still in the honeymoon phase of this pregnancy where I'm happy about everything

What I am looking forward to: Our 8 week ultrasound on 10/28

Milestones: 1st Ultrasound show heart beating and measuring on target!!!!!

Symptoms-

sore BB's

Frequent urination

Heartburn with some nausea

Extreme Fatigue

mood swings :) to :( back to :) in minutes!



6w1d First Ultrasound Photo!!!

Today DH and I went for our first Ultrasound to see the lil' one. I was a little anxious because I started spotting last week that has continued with cramping. I was expecting to hear not good news at all. The Dr. began the ultrasound and he reassured me that everything is growing and looking on target for being 6 weeks pregnant, he also showed DH and I the lil' one's heart beating and told me to relax that everything is going to go great! DH and I were so excited!!! Here's our lil' one's first Pictures!!!!

6w1d





Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting circulate.

About Me:

How far along? 6w1d

Total weight gain/loss: < 1 lb

Maternity clothes? Not yet, still fitting into my regular clothes

Stretch marks? a few but not from this lil' one

Sleep: Yes Please!!! Sleeping is like my job now, I'm seriously logging in at least 10 hrs a day lol!

Best moment this week: Seeing my lil sweet pea's first picture and heartbeat on the ultrasound!

Movement: too early, I can't wait to feel the lil' one!

Food cravings: Salads, and lemon lime soda and rootbeer.

Gender: still too early to know

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: nothing really, I'm still in the honeymoon phase of this pregnancy where I'm happy about everything

What I am looking forward to: Our 8 week ultrasound on 10/28

Milestones: 1st Ultrasound show heart beating and measuring on target!!!!!

Symptoms-

sore BB's

Frequent urination

Heartburn with some nausea

Extreme Fatigue

mood swings :) to :(  back to :)  in minutes!

5w0d and 3rd Beta today

Your embryo (looking kind of like a tadpole) is starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, digestive)

Today I am 5w0d's Pregnant!!!! I never thought I'd get to say this! I went this morning for my 3rd Beta blood work today, Beta#3 2243 @ 21DPO!!!! Right where it should be for how far along I am! I'm going to start a weekly post that will show how big the lil' one is and little questioniare about how I am  feeling. Here is my five weeks post:

About Me

How far along? 5w0d

Total weight gain/loss: < 1 lb

Maternity clothes? Not yet, still fitting into my regular clothes

Stretch marks? a few but not from this lil' one

Sleep: Yes Please!!! Sleeping is like my job now, I'm seriously logging in at least 10 hrs a day lol!

Best moment this week: Getting past my last chemical PG date of 4w3d from June

Movement: too early, I can't wait to feel the lil' one!

Food cravings: Salads, and lemon lime soda

Gender: still too early to know

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: nothing really, I'm still in the honeymoon phase of this pregnancy where I'm happy about everything

What I am looking forward to: Our 1st u/s on 10/13

Milestones: I'm 5 weeks!

Symptoms-
sore BB's
Frequent urination

Heartburn with some nausea

Extreme Fatigue

Follow up from yesterday

This morning my dr. called again just to wish me Congratulations, she also wanted to tell me that she wants me to go next week on Monday or Tuesday for another Beta draw just to make sure the #s are where they are supposed to be. I understand why she needs to be sure, I'm still in shock and whatever I have to do to put my our minds at ease I'll do. She also told me that my first ob ultrasound will be on October 13th, 12 days to go! I'm so excited!! I'm 4w3d the same time back in June when I found out that I was going to have a chemical pregnancy loss. Its a bittersweet feeling, I'm so nervous, I keep checking the toilet paper after I wipe scanning for spots of blood. Every cramp and twinge I feel has my mind wondering if  I'll start bleeding soon. I am trying to be positive though, I have only a few symptoms, my breasts hurt and I'm more tired then I've ever felt before and I frequently have the urge to go to the bathroom. I didn't feel this way last time so this gives me a little hope.

Beta #1 and #2

Monday I went in for my First Beta blood test. I waited all afternoon for the results. Finally a little before 4:30 the Dr. called and told me Congratulations you are now very early pregnant my beta was 34, she said its a little on the low side, but she was hopeful, told me to go back today for my 2nd Beta. Once again  I waited all afternoon, my mind varying from postive thoughts of doubling, to negative thoughts of lower #s. Just when I thought I was going to go insane from the suspense the Dr. called just a little bit passed 4:30 with the Great news that my beta not only doubled but almost tripled from 34 to 133. I AM  PREGNANT!!!!!! They also tested my progesterone which was at 17.5 which is ok, but I'll have to continue the progesterone supps. She told me that she'll call me soon for an ultrasound appt. to check to make sure everything is where it's supposed to be. I am beyond shocked, excited, nervous. I never thought I'd get to say those words! Here are a few pics of tests that I have taken.